So I had my first interview for grad school on Friday.
I’ll just say I have no idea what to make of it. I sat around a table with four established composers, who sat very quietly examining my scores, asking me questions here and there, and before I knew it they said I was free to go.
I don’t feel great about it. But I’ll know soon enough what will come of it.
Being at Bennington I forget how fraught with competitive energy classical music pedagogy is. It was a rude awakening to realize I was 1 of 14 people auditioning that day, that I needed to go in there and fight. I think I did, but I don’t know if I have a spot at Mannes.
The real story is in my return to school: for the whole day afterwards people were asking me how it went. At a big school that just wouldn’t happen, tons of people wouldn’t be coming up to me in the dining hall or in the common room asking me about my interview. It was a distinctly Bennington homecoming, and though the interview itself left me drained and bewildered, it was nice to come home and to know I was cared for.